I’m going through a rather dull stage at the moment, It’s great that after years and years of fighting the HCW I finally got my surgery, even though I ended up going private and paying for it myself, but, God I’m lonely!
It’s hard to think that somewhere there are two of my children enjoying life and I haven’t seen them for nearly nine years, due to their mother thinking that I was some kind of freak that shouldn’t be aloud to walk the earth or have any contact with my children, but I suppose as long as they are healthy and have a good life, then that’s ok, isn’t it!?
What makes things worse is that I really don’t feel like getting into a new relationship as I’ve got so used to having my own independence, running my own business, going out when and where I want to, listening to music that I enjoy. I really couldn’t cope with been told what to do and not to do! Maybe it’s a rod for my own back, but I’ll have to start a relationship sooner or later, or it will be too late.
There is nothing worse than going out to the cinema on your own and having no one to talk to about it later, oh well never mind, that’s my bit of depressing typing over, till next time