A day of nothing and not much else!!
January 20th, 2008 —
Kaz
I’m going through a rather dull stage at the moment, It’s great that after years and years of fighting the HCW I finally got my surgery, even though I ended up going private and paying for it myself, but, God I’m lonely!
It’s hard to think that somewhere there are two of my children enjoying life and I haven’t seen them for nearly nine years, due to their mother thinking that I was some kind of freak that shouldn’t be aloud to walk the earth or have any contact with my children, but I suppose as long as they are healthy and have a good life, then that’s ok, isn’t it!?
What makes things worse is that I really don’t feel like getting into a new relationship as I’ve got so used to having my own independence, running my own business, going out when and where I want to, listening to music that I enjoy. I really couldn’t cope with been told what to do and not to do! Maybe it’s a rod for my own back, but I’ll have to start a relationship sooner or later, or it will be too late.
There is nothing worse than going out to the cinema on your own and having no one to talk to about it later, oh well never mind, that’s my bit of depressing typing over, till next time 
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January 20th, 2008 at 8:20 pm
Hi
Congratulations on your surgery, I hope everything goes well for you. I am very similar to you in as much as I am self employed, I don’t see my two children from my last marriage no doubt because of the poisonous influence from my ex. I have been fighting HCW for almost two years and getting nowhere yet. I have just had my first private appointment in London and I am looking forward to the next one in April when all being well, I will begin my hormones and start living.
I hope that one day, when my children are old enough to evaluate life for themselves without outside interference, they may very well understand why I had to be me. Of the children from my first marriage , who are all adults now, one in particular is 100% behind me, as is my 83 year old father and I feel extremely proud of them for their understanding and encouragement. I hope that your children will one day accept you as the person you are.